Im cindy and 40 and struggle to have children

My name is Cindy lynne Cloete, the reason for fundraising is that i would love or be grateful to consive me and my soon to be husband have tried for 5 years and each and everytime its ending up in tears we lost 3 pregnancy's already 2 was ectopic wich the doctors cant tell me why this was happening to me, I lost one tube because the first ectopic was frectured the tube. second one i found out early enough so likely they did a leproscopic on me thank god i had another change we give it time till last year i had another failure this time it was something called an chemical pregnancy i was in tears why this always happened to me i feel like a failure how do i move on cant even look at a pregnant women without feeling down, so tonight i google and came across gift of parenthood i really would like to raise funds so that i can go to a really good gynecologist and help me with my problem i really want a baby i know we gona be so much great parents i hope u guys find it in your heart to help me